today is the day d....teoh just left klia.....on his flight to sydney now.....really upset that he is not around me anymore....for this 1 or 2 year..... am i really gonna get through this period easily....can be tougher just like that.....really no idea.....i just know that i miss him so much now d.....no one to call when i upset, no one to call before i go to bed, no one to give morning call, no one to watch movie with.....there are too many things that we done together here.....at least he will try to provide me what i want....try to please me...try to pujuk me...even though not at his fault sometimes.....really miss him a lot here.....really hope that this period will over soon...and he can finished his master and get a good job there....and if possible, when the economy not in downturn, i can look for job and work there also...at least can be together.....not long distance....
though i know there is always msn webcam, skype, etc..but the feeling is different wan...that no one there is for u to lean on..when u need him the most......i cant just drive to subang whenever i want....and he oso cant find me anytime he wants d.....really miss him lots here.......wish that i can see him soon...or he can fly back soon too.....
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
exhausted...upset...
Felt very exhausted lately....dunno why.....seems like forever not enough sleep....tired to work, tired to think, tired to drive, tired to talk, tired to go out, tired to chat on phone...dunno whats wrong with me lately.....
3 more weeks countdown.....another 3 weeks, gotta get used the lifestyle without teoh....sighz....how ler....really upset that he is going to sydney....upset that we gotta get stucked in the "long distance relationship" later....some of my fren said is alrite....maybe even better, coz can enjoy single lifestyle, enjoy the freedom.....but some would said that LDR doesnt really work.... might even ruin the r/ship....sighz....i oso dunno what will happen in the future....just felt like spending every moment with him now....but i still got job....i gotta work...sad case....and both of us got no $$$ to travel around like others as well....and yet, we only got limited time to the 3 weeks also....sighz...3 weeks....not even 1 month.....just pray for the best that i would really really survive.....for our LDR....
3 more weeks countdown.....another 3 weeks, gotta get used the lifestyle without teoh....sighz....how ler....really upset that he is going to sydney....upset that we gotta get stucked in the "long distance relationship" later....some of my fren said is alrite....maybe even better, coz can enjoy single lifestyle, enjoy the freedom.....but some would said that LDR doesnt really work.... might even ruin the r/ship....sighz....i oso dunno what will happen in the future....just felt like spending every moment with him now....but i still got job....i gotta work...sad case....and both of us got no $$$ to travel around like others as well....and yet, we only got limited time to the 3 weeks also....sighz...3 weeks....not even 1 month.....just pray for the best that i would really really survive.....for our LDR....
Thursday, January 15, 2009
new year resolution? nothing?
new year resolution?
everyone talked about new year resolution.... this year, i seemed to have no determined new year resolution.... life is so bored nowadays... ever since i switched to current job, i am so free.... until the extent i lost my direction... dunno how shall i carry on for the rest of my life... no ambition also..... i know i am not suitable in becoming those successful career woman.... no enough $$$ to go traveling... n the worst is i am just too free now.... even though i am so free, still got no time to go dating.... coz my bf is super busy... life as an auditor...
i was an auditor as well.... i understand the term "busy"..... last time is busy till no personal life.... nowadays even i got my personal life, but got nothing much to do.... i guess i must have been losing lots of close frens' in touch while being an auditor.... i always try to be understanding, understand the workload and pressures faced by my bf....but understand is just a theory thingy....practical wise, i am hard to achieve the "understanding" criteria.... i knew he's super busy and stressed.... but just cant control my temper and anger while he keep me waiting too long for his jobs sometimes....sighz... i think the problem is just on my side......i shall switch job lar...switch to some busy job perhaps.....but of coz not to the extent as busy as my previous auditor job last time.... nway, this is just my foolish thought....dont think the current economy situation still hiring ppl like last time.... everywhere oso freeze employment....:(
cny is approaching soon.... no mood to shop.... coz no extra $$ to spend as well... and no fit bodyline to buy clothes oso....my weight gain a lot recently....until i oso no eye see myself d.....wanna have some new year resolution for 2009...such as diet or keep fit....uncertain feeling about my future in terms of career and love life.... sometimes i would feel everything is great, but sometimes i would feel that everything is so depressed... sighz oso dunno what i want actually... i think i oso making my self complicated....maybe i would just have to clear
my mind and think nothing... if there's the best solution....
everyone talked about new year resolution.... this year, i seemed to have no determined new year resolution.... life is so bored nowadays... ever since i switched to current job, i am so free.... until the extent i lost my direction... dunno how shall i carry on for the rest of my life... no ambition also..... i know i am not suitable in becoming those successful career woman.... no enough $$$ to go traveling... n the worst is i am just too free now.... even though i am so free, still got no time to go dating.... coz my bf is super busy... life as an auditor...
i was an auditor as well.... i understand the term "busy"..... last time is busy till no personal life.... nowadays even i got my personal life, but got nothing much to do.... i guess i must have been losing lots of close frens' in touch while being an auditor.... i always try to be understanding, understand the workload and pressures faced by my bf....but understand is just a theory thingy....practical wise, i am hard to achieve the "understanding" criteria.... i knew he's super busy and stressed.... but just cant control my temper and anger while he keep me waiting too long for his jobs sometimes....sighz... i think the problem is just on my side......i shall switch job lar...switch to some busy job perhaps.....but of coz not to the extent as busy as my previous auditor job last time.... nway, this is just my foolish thought....dont think the current economy situation still hiring ppl like last time.... everywhere oso freeze employment....:(
cny is approaching soon.... no mood to shop.... coz no extra $$ to spend as well... and no fit bodyline to buy clothes oso....my weight gain a lot recently....until i oso no eye see myself d.....wanna have some new year resolution for 2009...such as diet or keep fit....uncertain feeling about my future in terms of career and love life.... sometimes i would feel everything is great, but sometimes i would feel that everything is so depressed... sighz oso dunno what i want actually... i think i oso making my self complicated....maybe i would just have to clear
my mind and think nothing... if there's the best solution....
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